Am at the point where i don't care.?

you definately are suffering from depression. you can see all the things that are bothering you, and you think that nothing you do can change the way you feel...hogwash...you are here cause God has plans for you. you are an important part of humanity. i don't know you, but i do know how you are feeling. i see a psych. dr. and i take tons of meds, and still sometimes i have those days when i am so down. imo, you should see a dr. and talk about how you feel, and perhaps get some meds in ya. i know things look very bleek to you, believe me i do, but you need to take this blanket of depression and get rid of it. keep drawing, even if it doesn't look right, just keep at it, cause it seems that is very important to you. don't not do anything, keep your mind busy. that's all i can think of right now. just keep your chin up, and every day that pes, is one that you won't have to experience again. feel free to email me if ya want. hope you feel better soon.